Searching for The Breakthrough

So...I'm sitting here listening to one of my favorite ministers, TD Jakes. Love him or hate him, the brotha can break down the scriptures in a way that is thought provoking, but still maintaing spiritual soundness.

He's speaking about liberation and how those of us in the church will be 'stuck' in a rut of doubt, uncertainty, and lack of faith. We know we're called to greatness, and are grounded in what God's word says we are, but somehow, we're stuck in a place that seems hard to come out of.

We find it easier to run to church ( or work) sit on committees, get on boards, join organizations than to deal with whatever it is that's tormenting us. Then...when we do get 'free' we expect for everyone else to be on board with our new found revelation.

Once the freedom comes, though...it's only temporary. Because all it takes is one thing not to go right, one wrong word to be spoken to us, and we're right back where we started from. We pay lip service to our faith as opposed to really putting it into action.

Then...Sunday morning or Wednesday night comes again. We arm ourselves with our bible and a smile, determined to continue wearing the social mask of perceived happiness and having it all togetherness....but deep down inside we're hurting, crying out for someone, anyone to pull us out of the pit of deception and turmoil. The music begins to play, and we get ' the spirit.' The word is delivered to us, and we get a little somethin' pulling and tugging at our spirit telling us we can make it, our breakthrough is coming, our day is coming, we're free and all the other spiritual buzzwords that are so prevelant in our church vernacular.

The reason we continue to be polarized in our spiritual walk, is that we're searching for some big manifestation of God to happen in our lives. We want to 'feel' something. We search incessantly for the breakthrough...but the breakthrough seems to only be temporary.

Something has become evidently clear to me. Instead of searching for the breakthrough, we should be drawn to the One who provides the breakthrough. God...in his many forms and infinite wisdom and power wants us to draw closer to him.

I don't believe he desires us to be thrown to and fro or to be in a perpetual state of uncertainty. He desires us to be even keeled, consistent, and resolute in our search for Him.

I'm learning that everything that happens to us...the good and the bad, is designed to draw us closer to our Creator. Every area of our lives should be touched by God. Our existence is predicated upon His grace and mercy. The blessings, the trials, the ups and downs are all designed to draw us closer to our spiritual center.

The breakthrough shouldn't be the end result. Our journey with the breakthrough provider is what will bring us the peace, joy and freedom we're in search of.

Come walk with me...

PosB

I Owe Me

Everyone who knows me, and of course those of you who read my blog, know that I'm really big on self empowerment. Life is a journey...but along the way, there's lessons to learn and epiphanies to glean something from.

Recently, I've had to make some difficult decisions, and we all know, change is never an easy thing to deal with.

It's awkward because you're making an adjustment that may not have necessarily been planned for. Contemplating the change can oftentimes be more difficult than change itself. Once done, it's difficult for everyone involved to deal with and understand.

Growth is never easy. The pain that can emerge as your spirit moves to a new place can be overwhelming sometimes. The end result is amazing...but it's that in between stage that's oftentimes difficult to deal with.

It's during my own recent growth pains that I realized something.

I owe me.

I owe it to myself to not remain stagnant. Wallowing in self-doubt and pitty can't be options for me.

I own my mental, spiritual, emotional, and physical well-being. And likewise, I own the preservation of that as well. God has entrusted me with these elements and it's in his will that I become the best me that I can be.

I owe it to myself to be the best ME that I can be.

Making the choice to embark upon a growth journey is the first step. It's not easy, and sometimes, yes...it hurts. But you owe yourself the right to launch out.

The benefit isn't in the end result...it's in the journey.